For years now I have been my happiest when I hold a paint brush in my hand. It really doesn’t matter if it’s a teeny-weeny paint brush, or a big honker house brush, I love to paint! Watercolor paper can be laying right in front of me, and I can manage to find something creative to do with it. Or it could be a canvas, a board, or even a wall, I can find a way.
My voice is found in paint, and my artwork!
So when I hit a wall, and my inspiration dries up, I panic. Pure and simple, it terrifies me that I will no longer be able to create with paint. This is one of those times. If I have a project going, as I do now, I seem to fight it! My deadline for this current project is the first of July. It’s a doozy too! I have three pieces that need to be finished. I could eek out a week more, but vacation looming, I really don’t have much more time to spend. There is another two projects that have to be completed by the first of next week, and I’m really lagging on those. They haven’t even been started, and that’s a real problem!!!
So What Now?
I think my writing is taking over my love of painting in a way. I’ve always wanted to write, and now I have the opportunity to learn and grow. These little month long classes are wonderful to help do just that, but at the same time, my growing has almost come to a complete halt in the creating area. Weekends have got to be creative especially since I’m so far behind in these projects. I even sleep better when I’m busy rushing around painting, and pulling ideas together!
Where is your voice anyway?
Do I have two voices…my art, and my writing? I certainly love them both, but are they my true voice, maybe. By the way, and this might be the key, I am a Gemini! The twins, two sides, two loves, two voices….. I’m saddened to think one of them might not come back, but it also excites me to think there may be something new, and interesting on it’s way!
Will my voice find me?
It’s been my experience that if you don’t agonized over things, they have a way of working themselves out. I’m betting that…….
My Voice will find me!
Anyone who knows me, knows I haven’t been very productive in quite a while. I’ve tried, but somehow I just haven’t been able to find inspiration…until now!
A couple of months ago, I signed up to be part of the Sketchbook Project!
For the last few summers I have watched each year as this project unfolds, and in the back of my mind, thinking one year I would join in. This was that year! Of course, I needed another project, but what better time to start an art project than when you’re busy, right? My thinking was that it is only 32 pages, and certainly a little project like that would be a snap for me! The other thing is, we are all busy all the time anyway, so why wait?
After getting back into our home since having bamboo floors laid in the entire house (studio included), I think I’m ready to start thinking about putting pen to paper, and leaving my mark on whatever community it will be going to. That’s not to say that everything is perfect in our home. After all, some of the paintings still remain stacked in the corner waiting to find their rightful place on the wall. The livingroom looks new, and fresh. I’ve changed things around, replaced some things, and gotten rid of others. It feels like a new home to me, and now I’m ready to get back to sketching, and painting!
It’s interesting how something like this can give us an entire new outlook on just about everything, and I find myself energized, and inspired!
Who knows how long it will take me to complete this sketchbook. The project needs to be mailed back by January 15, 2014, so I really do have plenty of time. Anything goes this time, and that’s exactly what I’m going to do, anything, whatever feels right! Poetry, sketches, collage, ink, pen, you name it.
In the next few weeks, or maybe I should say, next couple of months, I’ll be posting the pages I work on, and you can tell me what you think. Make suggestions, I’m always open for comments, in fact I love getting comments, it keeps me motivated!
So for now,….. Start a project, and share it with me! I’ll be back!
And more practice!
- Cathy is really good at what she does!
- She is an excellent colorist!
- A great teacher!
- Easy to get to know, and willing to share!
So when the opportunity presented itself for this half day class, I jumped on it, and I wasn’t disappointed!
In my February 4 post, I talked about the class, and a little about my history with Cathy Carry.
Last week one of my paintings that wasn’t working, just found itself with a fresh coat of gesso on it, and the beginning of not just a new painting, but a new technique! It started out so well, and just like anything else one is trying to master, went downhill……. There isn’t much else to do to it at this point, except maybe gesso over it once again. However, I’m not going to do that.
Here is Why!
When I’m working on a new technique, I like to look at it, analyze it, let it sink in, and give it a chance to talk to me. That is my process, and in doing that I can see things I don’t want repeated, things I might do differently next time, or even things I really love about the painting. This painting has all of that! I have posted pictures from beginning to end, and I don’t think I’m going to go any further on it, but rather keep it so I might be reminded of what direction I want to go, and what direction I never want to go again!
The pictures are also an attempt at stomping back my ego, and get over myself! After all you can’t be perfect right out of the gate, and how can I develop a style if I don’t practice, practice, practice?
Taking pictures of my work as I’m painting is one of the ways I find things that might, or might not be working. I’ve done this for years, and it has helped me a great deal. As I’m gathering the pictures to include in this post, I’m seeing new things that I like, and things I realize now I don’t want to repeat. So thank you one and all for prompting me to keep writing, and to me for listening to you. I’m learning as I sit here and blog!
P.S….As I look at this painting, and trying to figure out what isn’t working, I’m seeing many things that I hadn’t seen before. I said it was finished, but I’m going to play with it just a little more, and then my intentions are to leave it alone, call it finished, and learn from it!
Weeks ago I signed up for a short four-hour workshop with Cathy Carey. Cathy is a working artist, with her paintings in many galleries! She is known for the way her paintings sing with color and movement. Many years ago she offered a one day workshop to “Paint Like Monet!” I jumped all over that, and was amazed at the results. This is when I was still painting in watercolor, and hadn’t dabbled in acrylics,or learn what they could do! So when I overheard her tell someone else that she was giving a half day workshop, I hopped right on it!
I have admired Cathy for her use of color, and how she marries opposites together for many years, and now I have the opportunity to learn more from her!
This weekend was the class I signed up for, and I was excited to be there!
What transpired was a fun morning with each artist having their own spin on the same subject. What I learned were things I already knew, but never put together in this way! I don’t profess to be anywhere in the same category as Cathy Carey, but you have to start somewhere, right? Especially since I’m all over the place with my art! This class, and what Cathy was teaching certainly spoke to me – Big Time! The pictures of my art reflect the process. I’m sure you will agree how far I need to go, but the results were fun, and I’m planning to keep working on her technique! I love color!!!